It's saturday night - late. I've been standing outside my bedroom looking up at the twinkling stars. I can hear the chimes on the back deck singing the song of the night air. The air moves around me and feels crisp, cool and so clear. The sky looks lit up with more stars than normal - it's almost creamy. I'm wondering what goes on up there in the starry heavens, and where are the people I know who have left this earth. I miss them. I wonder why am I still here, what will I be called to do next and in service to whom and what? This is a vein of thought that has been occurring for me more often in the last couple of months.
A business friend from many years ago (early '90s) died this week. He was about my age - Ron Riedesel. We were not close but I do remember going on numerous business trips with him and admiring how gutsy he was in his business dealings. He was a family man and family was important to him. I'll admit I was shocked, hearing of his passing, and saddened to hear the news of him going so quickly while struggling with cancer.
I'm wondering what my next few years will be like while I'm here. I know I want to cultivate a love for life and a passion for sharing what I know with others. LIly and I were talking about her graduation in the year 2010 and what life will be like then. I realized that her graduation is in two years and I know from experience how that passes so quickly. Each passing day becomes another one to cherish. Justin will graduate the same week, I believe. One phase of my life will be complete and yet I'm sure more will be on offer for me to participate and contribute in Justin's, Lauren's and Lily's lives and others close to me.
But what about society and global issues? How will we shift our consciousness and mindsets around the practice of generating more clean power and using it more wisely, promoting healthy living with more nourishing food, affordable medical attention, education that is affordable and matters of peace versus war? These matters don't just go away by voting a new, seemingly popular president into office and hoping he has all the answers.
I'm not sure where my part is in all this as I enter the second part of my life. I trust this will come to me when it's time. I do feel an urge to be part of the solution versus part of the problem in whatever way I can contribute my skills.
The stars might not care one way or another. They will always be here just as the sun will rise again tomorrow. But I care and will be searching for how I can stay engage and create and continue to inspire others.
Sweet dreams,
Tom
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